When I saw this client, I thought, she cannot even be in high school yet. Her sweet face and frame were so small. She looked scared and sad. As soon as we started to talk, the tears came. She knew Jesus, expressing her faith in Him in her own youthful, innocent way. Then she expressed so much regret about the “mistake” she’d made…and its consequences.
She wasn’t surprised when I told her the test was positive. She knew. She also knew what she wanted to do, even though she said, “I know it’s wrong.” She told me her life plan, and this “mistake” was not going to keep her from it. Still, I could see contradiction in her body language. She loved her family. She loved God. She had a nice boyfriend. No one was pressuring her. She was too young. She didn’t ever think she’d be faced with this decision. Abortion makes God sad, she indicated. And yet, it was her only expressed option.
There was so much information coming at her, and then there was her sweet aunt, her legal guardian, who wanted to be in the room with us. I would want to be in the room too and hear what is being said to my girl. I have to bring her back with us. This girl is scared.
We needed to do an ultrasound, but she looked completely overwhelmed as I explained the internal ultrasound procedure to her. She had no idea of dates. Was it too early? The heart begins beating at five weeks and one day. Will she only think it is a blob of tissue if we can’t see a heartbeat? Please God, let us see something. Please speak to her. You’re the only one who can work in this situation. Nothing is too difficult for You.
And there it was--a beautiful moving image! She watched abortion information and adoption placement videos. Quiet tears, stoic expression, reality setting in, and no stated decision…she could go either way. What about her boyfriend and the part he plays in all of this? Clearly, there was a family who cared. But what would they speak into her, and how would their suspicions of us affect their advice to her? They feel abortion is the best option. After all, a college scholarship is on the line. Her expression says it isn’t quite that easy, though…this decision. The client is clearly in information overload and is ready to leave.
We were able to stay in touch through follow-up calls, though it was clear she had not made a decision yet and was still leaning toward termination. But then, weeks later, an answer: she is in prenatal care. She mentioned the adoption video she watched and the girl in it. She thinks it is what makes the most sense to her, and what she wants to do--a complete heart change! She expressed gratitude to the Liberty Women’s Clinic for helping her and for checking on her. We offered classes, consultation, kindness.
Please pray for her: for courage and wisdom in the days ahead. Pray for this unborn child.
For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)